I’ve had to cut something out of my life recently because it was a huge source of stress and anxiety. If you are human, I’m sure you know the emotions. Chronic stress is not healthy, and it negatively affects so many aspects of your life.
The source of stress was actually a class that I was unable to keep up with because I kept missing tons of the lectures due to frequent traveling for interviews. I’ve also been suffering from chronic fatigue (which I don’t understand yet, but I’m seeing a doctor about it in a few days). Don’t get me wrong, I’ve stressed plenty of times over classes. But this felt different.
You know those nightmares where you sign up for a class, but you forget about it until the very end of the semester and you start panicking just to get a good grade? No? (Just say yes so I feel normal.) Anyway, this class was one of those nightmares. I had no idea what was going on in class because I was never there. I saw no way of ever catching up.
Long story short, I withdrew from the class, and I am deferring it to next semester. Will next semester be a little harder now? Yeah, sure. But I also won’t be missing a huge chunk of the lectures, so I feel like it will be do-able then.
I feel so much better. I feel a weight lifted!
Now, a letter to my future self:
If there is anything unnecessary in your life that is causing you unhealthy amounts of stress, don’t be afraid of cutting it out of your life — or even just deferring it for a season.
Life is more than simply climbing the ladder to the top. It’s about enjoying the climb. Don’t ever compare yourself to others and their positions on the ladder. You don’t know what they’ve been through to get there (or what they are going through currently).
Remember that the scriptures say, “It is not requisite that a man should run faster than he has strength.” (Mosiah 4:27)
Your busy-ness is not a sign of how important or “good” you are. When life gets hard, take time to just focus on the most necessary things.
Put simply: simplify.